{"id":502,"date":"2019-05-27T20:06:28","date_gmt":"2019-05-27T19:06:28","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/blogs.ncl.ac.uk\/bridges\/?p=502"},"modified":"2019-05-27T23:58:25","modified_gmt":"2019-05-27T22:58:25","slug":"sue-pearson-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blogs.ncl.ac.uk\/bridges\/2019\/05\/27\/sue-pearson-2\/","title":{"rendered":"Sue Pearson"},"content":{"rendered":"

The Gardener<\/strong><\/p>\n

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Illustration by India Hibbs<\/p><\/div>\n

You push your\u202ffinger against the grubby bell\u202fand are not surprised\u202fthat\u202fit\u2019s\u202fbroken. The grey\u202ffront\u202fdoor\u202fhas\u202fno window, no knocker,\u202fonly a\u202fspy hole and a\u202fslit of a letter box. You\u202fhear\u202fmusic\u202ffrom inside. You\u202fknock. First, sharp with\u202fknuckles,\u202fthen\u202fpounding,\u202fwith your\u202ffist.\u202f Still nothing.\u202f You fiddle\u202fwith\u202fyour lanyard and glance back to your\u202fcar,\u202fparked up onto the pavement behind you. It\u2019s\u202fbeen a long day.<\/p>\n

Gingerly,\u202fyou push at\u202fthe rusted\u202fmetal flap\u202fand call\u202fthrough the letter box.<\/p>\n

\u201cHello?\u202fIt\u2019s Sam. From Children\u2019s Services?\u202fMrs Phillips are you there? Hello!\u201d<\/p>\n

You can\u202fhear someone singing along at the back of the house,\u202fa deep voice.<\/p>\n

\u201cAll I\u202fwanna,\u202fBe\u202fno Other, Be together\u2026\u201d\u202fBeyonce.<\/p>\n

Mr Phillips.<\/p>\n

Funny you were\u202flistening to that song on the way here.<\/p>\n

\u201cMr Phillips?\u202fIt\u2019s Sam\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n

Suddenly\u202ffootsteps running down stairs and someone is\u202fbehind the door.<\/p>\n

\u201cDad, it\u2019s the social, dad, can I open the door?\u201d and you hear the\u202fchild fumbling with the door\u202fcatch\u202f\u202fand\u202fbehind her someone coming.<\/p>\n

\u201cOut of my way, April!\u201d\u202fHis voice demands\u202fimmediate response.<\/p>\n

The door opens\u202fand\u202fhe is in front of you.\u202fYou can\u202fhear children\u2019s\u202fcartoons\u202fin the background.<\/p>\n

You hold\u202fyour\u202fID card on its\u202flanyard\u202fout\u202ftowards him,\u202fbut he\u202fignores\u202fit\u202fand looks\u202fyou\u202fup and down.\u202fYou assess\u202fhim too.\u202fHe is\u202fslightly taller\u202fthan you,\u202fwiry with a\u202f\u2018Peaky Blinders\u2019\u202fhaircut and an\u202findigo\u202fdot,\u202fhigh on his right cheek.<\/p>\n

\u201cMr Phillips, Hi. I\u2019m Sam,\u202fwe met at the Initial Child Protection Conference. Do you remember me saying we had an appointment\u202ftoday\u202fso that I could chat to April\u202fand Jordan,\u202fat home?\u201d<\/p>\n

He looks at you, his head at a slight angle as if\u202fhe was deciphering what you just\u202fsaid.<\/p>\n

\u201cNah, I\u2019d forgotten that like.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cOh well, I\u2019m here now, can I come in?\u202fHi April!\u201d<\/p>\n

April,\u202fstill wearing her school sweat shirt, is\u202fbalancing on one leg,\u202fon the second step of the uncarpeted stairs. She holds the bannister and leans\u202fout from it,\u202fwatching her father. She smiles\u202fshyly at you and glances\u202fback to\u202fher dad.<\/p>\n

You say,\u202f\u201cI\u2019ve seen\u202fApril\u202fand Jordan at school\u202fover the\u202flast\u202fcouple of\u202fweeks to introduce\u202fmyself, Mr Phillips, and\u202fI\u2019ve brought some colouring in to do with them today, if that\u2019s ok?\u201d<\/p>\n

Mr Phillips\u202fsteps\u202fback from the door.<\/p>\n

\u201cYou\u2019d better come in,\u202fthen. The missus is out but I\u2019ll\u202fput the kettle on if you want.\u201d<\/p>\n

You edge\u202finto the narrow\u202fhallway\u202fpast a row of coats on\u202fpegs and a neat line of shoes.\u202fSmiling\u202fat April\u202fyou\u202freach\u202fout to touch the\u202fgirls\u202farm,\u202fgiving it a quick,\u202ffriendly\u202frub.<\/p>\n

The\u202fhallway is\u202fpainted a\u202ftired beige and\u202fmarked randomly with what appears\u202fto be splashes of old tea or maybe juice,\u202flower down,\u202fscuff marks from shoes. The door\u202fshuts\u202fbehind you\u202fand the stains are\u202fless distinct.\u202fThere\u202fare\u202fno pictures or photographs,\u202falthough\u202fyou spot\u202ftwo nails knocked into the wall at head height.<\/p>\n

Mr Phillips leads\u202fthe way into the\u202fliving room.<\/p>\n

\u201cJordan, switch off the telly, social\u2019s here.\u201d<\/p>\n

A large screen\u202fTV mounted to the wall dominates\u202fthe room\u202falong\u202fwith two sofas, one\u202fpushed\u202fback,\u202fagainst the wall opposite and\u202fthe other in front of the window.\u202fJordan is\u202fcurled up\u202fthere, thumb in his mouth and\u202fattention fixed on the\u202fnoisy cartoon.<\/p>\n

\u201cJordan!\u201d\u202fhis father barks\u202fand grabs\u202fthe remote,\u202fswitching off the screen.<\/p>\n

Jordan begins\u202fto whine.<\/p>\n

You step\u202fin front of the boy\u202fand squat\u202fdown.<\/p>\n

\u201cHi Jordan, remember me. I\u2019ve come with that colouring in I promised.\u201d<\/p>\n

Jordan\u2019s frown twists\u202fto a\u202fsleepy\u202fsmile,\u202fhis thumb still in his mouth.<\/p>\n

The living\u202froom is\u202fimmaculately tidy.\u202fYou feel concerned. Had the children not been present, there would be little\u202fto suggest their existence\u202fat all.<\/p>\n

\u201cCan we colour in here,\u202fMr Phillips. We can\u202fuse\u202fthe coffee table.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cAye,\u202fbut\u202fdivn\u2019t\u202fmake a mess, she\u2019s obsessed with keeping the place clean, their mam.\u202fI\u2019m starting\u202fthe kids\u2019\u202ftea,\u202fso I\u2019ll\u202fbe in the kitchen. \u201c<\/p>\n

You kneel on the floor and begin to take pictures\u202fand colouring pencils out of your\u202fbag.<\/p>\n

\u201cGreat. Thanks, Mr Phillips\u2026\u202factually,\u202fis it ok if I call you Dave?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cAye\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWill Ruth be home soon?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cNah, she\u2019s gone to see her sister.\u201d<\/p>\n

You turn to him and notice\u202fApril\u202floitering in the doorway looking uncertain.<\/p>\n

\u201cCome on love\u201d, you encourage\u202fthe girl.\u201d Come and sit with me.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cIs Ruth ok?\u201d you ask\u202fDave\u202fabove the child\u2019s head.<\/p>\n

Dave looks\u202ftowards the kitchen.<\/p>\n

\u201cAye, her sister\u2019s poorly. She\u2019s gone to make their\u202ftea.\u202fShe\u2019ll be late home.\u201d<\/p>\n

You\u202fsettle\u202fdown with the children. As you\u202feach\u202fchose\u202fpictures,\u202fyou ask\u202fquestions about their day at school\u202fand\u202fabout\u202ftheir\u202ffriends and teachers\u202fmentioned at your\u202flast meeting with them.\u202fThey discuss\u202ftheir picture choices and share\u202fcoloured\u202fpencils.<\/p>\n

You\u202fenjoy\u202fthese\u202f\u2018getting to know you\u2019\u202fsessions, the easiest\u202fcomponent\u202fof your\u202fFamily Assessment. The children have\u202fbegun\u202fto relax with you\u202fand now,\u202fApril\u202fleans against your\u202farm,\u202fbusy colouring in a\u202fpicture of a fairground. She has\u202fkept within the lines meticulously and is\u202fcolouring each balloon in a bunch held by a showman\u202fshe had already dressed in a black top hat and red coat.<\/p>\n

Still perturbed at the sparseness of the room you ask\u202fthem\u202fabout their favourite toys.<\/p>\n

Jordan says\u202fthat he likes \u201cFortnite\u201d which he plays\u202fon his\u202fdad\u2019s phone. April\u202ftwists\u202fher finger through her hair\u202fand\u202fputs\u202fdown her pencil.<\/p>\n

\u201cDo you want to see our bedroom, Sam?\u202fMummy painted my bit\u202fwith flowers and\u202fJordan\u2019s bit\u202fwith stars.\u202f And then\u202fI can\u202fshow you\u202fall\u202fmy pictures I\u2019ve drawn. We stuck them\u202fon\u202fthe\u202fwall. We keep our toys there too,\u202fif\u202fyou want\u202fto see them.\u201d<\/p>\n

You want to whoop.<\/p>\n

\u201cLet\u2019s just make sure that\u202fyour dad is ok with that,\u201d you caution.\u202fYou don\u2019t want to be accused of snooping.<\/p>\n

\u201cI\u2019m tired of colouring.\u202fI\u202fwant a drink,\u201d Jordan announces\u202fjumping\u202fto his feet and scattering\u202fpencils.<\/p>\n

An old\u202ftransistor beside the cooker\u202fplays\u202fmusic quietly. You see\u202fthat although worn,\u202fthe kitchen is, as the living room, absolutely spotless.\u202fDave\u202ffries\u202fsausages in the pan and\u202fnods\u202fhis agreement to April taking you\u202fupstairs.\u202f\u202fAs you turn to leave the kitchen,\u202fyou notice\u202fa\u202fcracked pane of glass in the kitchen door.<\/p>\n

\u201cI\u2019ll get that kettle on for\u202fyou coming down again\u201d, he says,\u202fwatching you leave.<\/p>\n

You follow\u202fApril\u202fup the\u202fstairs\u202fand\u202finto a\u202fbright\u202fsingle\u202froom.\u202fYour feet sink into carpet, dark blue and shot through with yellow, red and white streaks. Windows, overlooking the back garden,\u202fare\u202fframed with rainbow patterned curtains.\u202fApril\u202fguides you to admire\u202fher\u202fpictures\u202fstuck to the wall\u202fand\u202fother pieces of craft that she has\u202fmade. As she chatters you notice, with relief,\u202fboard games,\u202fcars and lorries and other toys in\u202fboxes\u202funder the\u202fchildren\u2019s\u202fbunk bed.<\/p>\n

April\u202ftells you to cover your\u202feyes and\u202fturns you\u202fto stand in front of the bunk bed.\u202f At first you don\u2019t notice, but\u202fthen\u202fgasp as you look at the wall the\u202fbed is\u202fpushed against. On the top half,\u202fa\u202fhand painted picture of Jordan,\u202fhis face a concentration of joy. He straddles a space rocket which soars\u202fup into the darkness of the universe,\u202fpast planets with rings and translucent\u202fmists and stars,\u202fsome shooting their luminous trails\u202fthrough space.\u202f You imagine how this\u202flooks\u202fto the little boy at night.<\/p>\n

You bend down, to\u202fwhere April sleeps.\u202fThere, a\u202fgarden, beautiful\u202fwith lilies, violets, crocuses and daffodils growing\u202fup between blades of grass. On a\u202fswing, attached to the strong bough of an apple\u00a0tree,\u202fApril. High in the sky,\u202flegs outstretched before her,\u202fher\u202fface focussed and\u202fher hand extended\u202fto grasp a rosy apple as she swings.<\/p>\n

\u201cApril, did your mummy paint this?\u201d<\/p>\n

April looks\u202fdelighted at the impact the wall has\u202fhad\u202fon you.<\/p>\n

\u201cIt\u2019s so beautiful, I don\u2019t think I\u2019ve ever seen anything\u202flike it.\u201d<\/p>\n

You picture\u202fRuth at the Child Protection Conference.\u202fHer pale face strained. Her thin arms\u202fwrapped\u202fabout her body as she\u202fpleaded with the gathered professionals.\u202fHow she\u2019d\u202fwept,\u202fbegging them\u202fto believe that she was well and that she did not need the\u202fmedication her doctor had prescribed.\u202fThe drugs that numbed her mind.<\/p>\n

You will take\u202fphotographs of this mural\u202fonce you have\u202fpermission from Dave and Ruth. You feel that this is something that must not be ignored in your\u202fassessment.<\/p>\n

\u201cIs yours\u202fa picture of your garden?\u201d\u202fyou ask.<\/p>\n

You move\u202ftowards the window\u202fand immediately regret the question as you look\u202fout on patchy uneven grass, a\u202fwithered\u202ftree in the middle of it,\u202fblack bin bags\u202fpiled against the back fence and an abandoned\u202fspade.<\/p>\n

Someone had been digging.<\/p>\n

\u201cIs dad making a veg patch, or a flower bed for your mum?\u202fThat will be fun for you to\u202fhelp with.\u201d<\/p>\n

You feel\u202fthe air shift\u202fin\u202fthe room and turn\u202fto\u202fApril.\u202fThe crocheted square she had lifted to show you,\u202fhangs\u202fforgotten in her hand.<\/p>\n

\u201cApril\u2026\u202fwhat\u2019s the matter?\u201d<\/p>\n

You kneel\u202fdown to the child.\u202fHer face, so animated seconds before,\u202fis pale and distant. She glances at you and looks\u202faway.\u202fShe wraps\u202fher arms around\u202fher thin frame and looks\u202fat you\u202fagain.\u202fThe look of her mother.<\/p>\n

\u201cDad dug it.\u202fI watched him do it and when she\u2026\u202fwhen\u202fmum,\u202fcame out and saw,\u202fshe ran back in but he caught\u202fher. I saw him pull her\u202fand\u202fshe screamed but he put his hand\u202fover her mouth\u2026It\u2019s my secret. They don\u2019t know what I saw\u2026\u202fdaddy and Jordan, they don\u2019t.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cApril,\u202fwhere\u2019s your mum?\u201d<\/p>\n

You feel cold and\u202fsick.\u202fApril\u2019s\u202fface is shell shocked\u202fand\u202fyou know,\u202fabsolutely,\u202fthat this\u202flittle girl\u202fhas\u202fwitnessed something terrible. You glance\u202fback into the garden at the dug\u202fearth.<\/p>\n

April\u2019s breath comes\u202fin bursts. She\u202fshakes\u202fher head, you\u202fthink, trying to lose those images\u202fand you pull\u202fher to you.\u202fApril pushes away\u202fto continue.<\/p>\n

\u201cDaddy put the soil on her. I saw him.\u202fWith his spade.\u202fThe light outside was on and when he went inside the light went off and\u202fI watched the dark. I waited but he didn\u2019t come back.\u201d<\/p>\n

She drops\u202fher voice to a whisper\u202fand submits to your arms.<\/p>\n

\u201cThen the light came back on and her hands were moving, like they were growing up from\u202fthe soil. And then she was pushing it all off her head. And coughing. And she climbed out. And she was wiping it out of her eyes and coughing more. It was falling out of\u202fher hair and I saw it in the light and I was scared.\u202fI wanted her to go away because I thought daddy would see her again and push\u202fher back.\u202f\u201c<\/p>\n

The voice in your ear is urgent,\u202fshe can hardly catch\u202fher breath such is\u202fthe need to pour all\u202fof this from her. Your head spins with your responsibility. Nothing could have prepared you\u202ffor this.\u202fFrom somewhere inside you hear\u202fyourself make\u202fsoothing noises against this\u202fbarrage.<\/p>\n

April begins\u202fto shake.\u202f\u201cMummy got out of the ground and then she went to the back door.\u202fI couldn\u2019t see anymore but\u202fI could hear her crying,\u202ftrying to get in.\u202fBanging on the glass. Daddy came and he shouted\u202fbecause it was broke.\u202fAnd he let her in.\u202fI heard them in the hall and\u202fthe picture of me and Jordan crashed off\u202fthe wall. Then\u202fdaddy came up and made\u202fa\u202fbath.\u202fI jumped\u202finto bed and pretended I was asleep.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cApril, your tea\u2019s ready!\u201d Dave\u2019s voice comes\u202ffrom the bottom of the stairs.<\/p>\n

April\u2019s eyes round.\u201d It\u2019s my secret,\u201d she says her eyes boring into yours.<\/p>\n

\u201cSam, I have a cuppa for you too.\u201d<\/p>\n

~<\/p>\n

She sits\u202fon the stool at the end of the table\u202fwhile the kids eat.\u202fShe is small,\u202flooks like she thinks she\u2019s too good for us.\u202fI give her a mug\u202fof\u202ftea. She thanks me but doesn\u2019t look at me. She talks to Jordan but looks at April.\u202fI lift my mug\u202fto drink. Jordan\u202fis talking to her about seeing the moon through his uncle\u2019s telescope and she is only half listening. She should be taking notes about that,\u202for something.\u202f I\u2019m not having that.<\/p>\n

\u201cEverything ok then, Sam?\u201d I ask. \u201cDid you see what you needed to, upstairs? Our Jordan has always loved his rockets and space and that. Haven\u2019t you,\u202fson?\u201d<\/p>\n

Jordan smiles mushed sausage at me. His mam would\u2019ve\u202ftelt\u202fhim to keep his mouth closed.<\/p>\n

Sam\u202fdoesn\u2019t look like she\u2019s left school, never mind being qualified enough to come in and break up a decent family.\u202f I watch her struggling to meet my eyes, but she does it.<\/p>\n

\u201cSounds like it.\u202f You know ever so much Jordan\u201d, she smiles at him.<\/p>\n

There is something else in her eyes, something I didn\u2019t see when she arrived.<\/p>\n

\u201cApril and\u202fJordan\u2019s bedroom\u202fis\u202fjust lovely too. I can\u2019t get over the mural\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n

\u2018Ever so much\u2019,\u202f\u2018Just lovely\u2019, \u2018mural\u2019\u2026fuckin\u2019\u202fponcy\u202fwitch.<\/p>\n

\u201cIt\u2019s great that you and Ruth were able to do it up for them. Are you hoping to redecorate the rest of the house?\u201d<\/p>\n

She sounds so fake\u202fI could laugh in her face.<\/p>\n

\u201cOh aye, bit by bit. You\u202fkna\u202fhow it is. We wanted to get the kids sorted first. Would that be something you can help us with, like. Maybe some money for the stair carpet.\u201d<\/p>\n

As I\u2019m\u202ftalking\u202fshe\u2019s looking between me and the back door. She\u2019s seen the broken glass.\u202fI know she wants to ask me about it. I can see her cogs\u202fturning,\u202fwhirring, whipping up some huge fuckin\u2019 conspiracy theory. Aye,\u202fshe\u2019ll\u202fsharp\u202fhave that down on paper.<\/p>\n

I tell the kids to hurry up. Jordan asks if mummy is coming home tonight and April drops her fork on the floor.\u202fSam jumps up and they both scrabble\u202funder the table for it.\u202fSam rubs April\u2019s back. Will she leave off\u202fpawing at me\u202fbairn.\u202fThey climb back up but the air starts\u202fto crack around me.<\/p>\n

I stare at the kids. She stares at the broken pane. She gulps her tea, I\u202fsip\u202fmine.\u202fJordan asks for more water. I take their plates and tell them they can have\u202fjust\u202fhalf an\u202fhour of telly. It sounds good, not too much.\u202fI can tell that\u202fSam wants to go with them. I offer her more tea. She says she has\u202fhad\u202fenough.\u202f I brush past her, to pick up the plates. Too close. She flinches and tries to cover it up.\u202f She slips off the stool and I am in front of her.<\/p>\n

\u201cDo you need to ask me anything?\u201d I say.\u202f Her eyes are fear. I could eat them.<\/p>\n

\u201cAbout the door?\u201d I say.<\/p>\n

She recovers herself and hands me her empty mug. She is\u202fwatching our hands.<\/p>\n

\u201cWell, I did wonder how it got broken, and\u2026\u202fis it safe?\u201d she mumbles,\u202fher voice breaking a little.<\/p>\n

\u201cYeah, me and Ruth, we had a bit of an \u2026accident\u201d<\/p>\n

I could laugh again, I\u2019m baiting her. She\u2019s breathing fast now and\u202fI imagine how it would feel to\u202fput my fist around her neck,\u202fwatch her squawk like a fuckin\u2019 pigeon. I could\u202fgo with that,\u202fafter all the hole\u202fis\u202fdug outside and me kids is glued to the telly, but then I hear the door open and Ruth cries \u201cI\u2019m back!\u201d<\/p>\n

The kids yell \u201cMam\u201d, and April wails \u201cMam, mam\u201d and she\u2019s sobbing and\u202fSam\u2019s wide eyes and open mouth\u202ftell me the lot.<\/p>\n

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Sue Pearson is a current MA Creative writing student having stepped away from a career in law. She began writing 2 years ago and enjoys creating short stories.Through the MA she has also had the opportunity to explore writing for Children and Young Adults and creating poetry. She is currently working on a Young Adult novel, a collection of Short Stories and some poems. She lives in Newcastle with her husband and two children. This is her first publication and her ambition is to have more<\/p>\n

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